Just when I think I'm moving on, it all comes back to me.

I just read Neely's xanga for the first time in a while. I don't know why I do this to myself. Everytime I think that I'm moving on and I'm going to be okay and it doesn't matter if we're friends or not, I talk to someone or I see someone and it just makes me wish this year had never happened. I know that's a horrible thing to wish because I've met so many new and wonderful people this year, but my life would be so much less complicated if I could just go back. It's almost the end of the school year and that oficially makes it one full year without them. I don't know if I'm ever going to be able to let go. In 7th grade, after the first year, I didn't even think about my friends in NY anymore. This is so much harder and it shouldn't be because I only knew them for two years and I knew my friends in NY my whole life. Half the time I was at East Wake I was fightin with people anyway...But I miss them. I miss them so much.