So stressed out. I just don't even know how to handle this. I'm not sleeping. I'm not eating, yet somehow still gaining weight. I think I'm getting sick and I just can't do this anymore! I hate school. It's so hard and I can't do it. I've never had to study anything until this year, and now, when I study, I still fail. I studied for an ap world history test I had on friday, and then when it came time to take the test, it was so hard that I just stopped reading the questions and picked the answer that had the most big words in it. I hate the fact that I'm struggling to get C's in math and chemistry and apwh. I hate it that I feel like I can't do anything without being judged. I feel like everyone's just waiting for me to screw up big time and fall flat on my face, and if I don't do everything exactly the way I'm expected to, and if I don't get everything done and do everything the right way, flawless, then I'm just going to let everyone down. Dad's never home anymore cause he's always away on one business trip or another, so Mom's stressed out beyond belief dealin with the four of us. So, she's always miserable, which makes everyone else miserable. Some of my friends are being so stupid about everything and I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm sick of trying to satisfy everyone and doing everything for everyone except me. The only reason I'm pushing myself in school is to make my parents happy because I just don't know how they'd react if I didn't. I'm just not doing anything for me anymore. Nothing's about me, ever. It's all about everyone else. I put everything aside to help someone else with their problems because I feel that if I were to tell them that I'm busy, then I'd make them even more upset. And I'm pushing everyone away because I can't handle relationships of any kind, including friends, when I'm like this. I just don't know how I'm going to keep going like this all year cause eventually I'm just going to break down and quit.

I'm at my limit.
If you push me again,
I'm jumpin off that cliff.