23 November 2005

what can you do?

This post is inspired by Bridget Piephoff...who used to be the only person I could depend on, and who's name I don't even think I spelt right. & dedicated to the old times: when the worst reality we had to face were breakups&little gossip.


So people always say that your highschool years are supposed to be the best of your life... that your supposed to have new fun experiences everyday... not just the same ole routine... that your supposed to meet some true life-long friends... that your supposed to also have time set aside for youself... to do things you like to do. But lately it seems that im not experiencing any of these things. Lately, my life has been that boring ole everyday routine

Says Bridget's xanga, which I hadn't read for about 6 months until today.

It's true, and it's what I've been writing about for a while, and I'm glad, and also saddened, to know that my "twin" can still fully comprehend what I'm feeling, better than anyone else, even though we haven't talked in forever.

But what really hit me the hardest, was what she wrote after that, about how friendships have gone to shit. It just made me realize how much change has taken place in our lives, not only since middle school, but even in the past year, or month. Everything is so so different now.

And I just want to know, we have these dreams for the future, and we think we know how our lives are going to play out, but 4 years ago, we never imagined we'd be here today, what's going to happen to us? Is it really going to be okay in the end? Is there an end?