"There are some things in this world you rely on, like a sure bet. And when they let you down, shifting from where you've carefully placed them, it shakes your faith, right where you stand." -Sarah Dessen, "Someone Like You"


Had a great time with the 3/4 last night!! We went to Crabtree and went to Build-A-Bear. My bear's named Chubs. Molly's is Andy Butterscotch and Emma's is Howie. haha. Cessy didn't have enough money so she stuffed Emma's. Then we had dip-n-dots and that was good. Then we went to Triangle and that was the best. So much fun. We spent the night at Molly's house and put the tent on the trampoline. It was great cause everytime one person rolled over or moved, the whole tent moved. lol. The squirrels in the trees woke me up this morning and then we got ready and went to church!!! I wore a white dress and you could see my green underwear through it if you stared hard enough. lol it made me laugh. We all sat together in church and we were crackin' up at the music ministry cause they're practically tone deaf and we were laughing at all the little kids and how Fr. Mel said "echetera." lol. Great fun.
Basically I have no idea what in the world is going on anymore. I don't know what to believe in. I don't know if I believe in love, I don't even know if I believe in God anymore, and it's really scary. I don't know how this is going to work with everything that has been my foundation suddenly falling out from under me. (Hence the quote from the Sarah Dessen book.) School starts in 2 days and I'm not ready. I hate this year already and it hasn't even begun. I'm more worried this time than I was last year, and last year I didn't know anyone. I'm mad at the world and Mommy's yelling at me as usual. I gotta go.