I have been realy slack with the updating. But whatever, it's my life. Get over it bitches.

So today was okay.

Yesterday was the dance concert and it went REALLY well, except for the part where I got purple paint ALL OVER the side of my face. But that's okay.

Ummm oh YEAH! So today, Anne who is the love of my life, gave me a letter which was the sweetest thing ever and I am going to tell you what it says because it made me feel good and once again, this is my life bitches.

To Erika, the boldest and most thoughtful person I know:

You have changed so much over the last year, it's amazing. I instantly noticed you at the beginning of freshmen year, my opinion was "there's another girl that knows exactly who she is, what she wants, and how to make friends." Well, to an extent I was right. But as I got to know you further, I quickly realized how special of a person you are. Some of the conversations I've had with you are so uplifting, because even if we're talking about something sad, you know exactly what I'm saying, and you can relate to it in every way.

You are a person that says something and sticks to it. I love and admire that about you. Like the time when you skipped Ms. Mergenthaler's class, and straight out told her instead of lying to her and making up some excuse. I would have liked to say I would do the same thing, but in a lot of ways, I think that if I had been put in the position, I would have done just what everyone else did, and take the coward way out and lie. It's an incredibly hard thing to do to say one thing and actually do that thing. I don't know if you realize how few people actually do that.

I was so surprised and happy when you gave me those earrings and bracelets on my birthday. That was probably the best birthday present I got, beause I didn't even expect it of you. It means a lot, and it truly did make my day perfect....

I am going to miss you a lot next year. I'll miss the timelines or whatever else it was that we split up oh-so-conveniently, and the late night talks that actually made a difference to me and made me think harder about some big issues. You've gone through so much this year, and it amazes me that through all of it, you haven't broken down and deteriorated, but have truely gotten one hundred times stronger than before.

You have so much talent, and you are going to accomplish great things in your life. You were one of the thirteen students in all of Enloe to make the Governors School program this summer, which is absolutely amazing. I am so proud of you, and I hope that you won't ever underestimate your talent from what you think or what anyone else says. You have not only the skills, but the persistence and drive to get anywhere you want to go. You deserve it, go for it!

~Anne<3

I cried. Seriously it made me so happy and so sad at the same time. Happy for obvious reasons, and sad because the year is ending. Already. We are halfway through high school and I can't believe how fast things are going by. I know that after this summer we're all going to come back totally different people and that crazy cycle of losing old friends and gaining new ones is going to begin again, and I hate it. I think the only person who's been a constant in my life from year to year since 7th grade has been Paige, and I hardly see her anymore either.

I just don't know how to handle anything that's going on around me anymore. I just wish I could hit the pause button and figure it all out.