Stressed out beyond belief...

I don't think I could handle going home at this point, and I don't know how well I'm going to take it a month from now when I have no choice. I don't want to go home. Never. I say that everytime I update, but the reality of the fact that I'm not going to be able to stay here forever is sitting in and it's extremely upsetting. I don't miss anyone or anything about home except good food. That's a really sad thing to say, but in all honesty, I don't. Not at all. I feel bad about not missing people but I really just don't miss anyone. And everyone here is like "Aww I miss my friends so much," but I don't miss mine, and it's not because I don't love them, it's because I know if they were here it would take away from the experience. It would ruin things for me.

And that's just how I feel.