Wrote again. It's...interesting. Not my normal style, but a good portrayal of my "love life" the past month.
Do blood-stained tears streak your face
When saturday comes knocking on your door again--
When he pushes me up against the bed
As if in a poorly-written romance novel
And I allow myself to drown in him;
I let myself flow away in his fragrance?
When we roll over, tangled in each other
Does your loneliness surface?
Does regret tear you to pieces on cold, harsh nights
When you know I'm engulfed in him and him in me
While a ragged teddy bear with a single glass eye
Your only friend
A Christmas gift from me to you
From days when every time your lips parted
They released my name, like innocent music?
When you envision me crying out his name
Can you feel the piercing pain
In each broken piece of yourself?
Does your mind flashback to the era
When you and I took our love to the photo booth
(A smile, click...A kiss, click)
Capturing artificial happiness
In frames that have been emptied long ago
So I can grant him with the privilege
Of sharing the same poses with me
(A smile, click...A kiss, click)
When you close your eyes in anger
Produced by the knowledge that I won't return
Can you recall me whispering in your ear,
"Let's remain this way forever."?
Can you still feel my hot breath on your bare chest?
Does my taste remain on your chapped, cracked lips
While you wonder if he tastes me the same way--
If I allot the same pieces of myself to him every night?
I gave him every bit that I was able
Attempted to provide him with more
Because you don't deserve the muscle in my chest
That still beats quickly when your eyes meet mine
And I sense you searching me for an apology
To release you from the heaviest burden
That I am not the reason for the pain you inflicted upon yourself