read this first.

First of all, obviously, we are all infuriated by it. That guy is completely off his rocker or something. (Insulting pieces of music that mimic those of John Cage?! Who the hell does he think he is? John Cage = genius!)

Secondly, I find it amazing that we spent all summer arguing with each other's views in our classes, and now finally we are coming together because a few people disagree with what happened to us at Governor's School. I know there's more to it than that, so much more, but on the surface it seems so ironic.

Although it makes me angry, it's really not the article that's bothering me. There is so much going on in my life right now that I don't know how to handle and for some reason I feel like I could handle life better if we were still at gsw. I just hate the real world so much. I really do. And I miss governor's school more than I will ever be able to express in words. It's almost been 6 months since we left. The seniors are getting acceptance letters, and I'm jealous. They get to all go away, while the few juniors that were there still have another year.

I just want my freedom, and not only freedom from my parents and freedom from high school, but freedom from myself. Freedom from the person I used to be, more specifically. Freedom from the harsh judgment of others. Freedom from the views that I've been raised to hold of the world, so I can form views of my own.

I really just want out of my own head. It's starting to not make much sense anymore.