I think it's time for a nice long post. The only problem is, I have nothing to write about. My life has settled into the comfortable routine that I wanted so desperately at the beginning of August, but now I'm tired of it. It's just become day after day of nothing but school and my SUPER extracurriculars and then tons of homework. I'm so phyiscally and mentally worn down that half of the time I don't even know what's going on anymore.
And I'm at a point in my life, yet again, where I don't recognize myself. In the last month or so I changed drastically and now I'm this person that I don't even know. I don't care about getting into a "good" college anymore. I don't even know if I want to go to college. Me?? Not go to college?? What?? Yeah. It just hit me one day that I'm being so ridiculous. I'm living this life that revolves around this one goal that I'm not even sure I want to reach. So I'm sacrificing my happiness for something I don't care about that much. Andrew and I have talked about the whole concept of sacrificing happiness now in order to ensure that you are happier in the future, but I don't know. I don't think it's worth it. I think we all need to learn how to take each day as it comes and stop planning for a future that might not even exist.
I think I've been through this whole spiel before. See?! Nothing interesting to talk about.