And then today I was moving my archives and I found this:
September 27, 2004
I've decided that if I close off the world, I can't be hurt anymore...
That's what I do, you know. I just shut everyone else out to save myself the pain. I can pinpoint when it started, not the exact day or time, but I can tell you what was happening in my life, and psychologically, it makes sense.
I think it should worry me more than it does.