It's been a while. We didn't end up going to New York. Ashley got the flu and Dad is in China until Sunday and then he leaves for Atlanta on Monday.
It really surprises me when people tell me that they actually read this. I never think that other people are going to read what I'm writing, mostly because I find myself to be a pretty boring person.
Last night at SAFEchild was our last night with that group of kids. It was kind of sad. We get new kids tonight though, so that will be an adventure. I should be in Charlotte with the falafels today, but no, instead I am sitting at home in good old Knightdale, North Carolina, being as unproductive as possible, and occaisonally considering filling out some job applications or doing some homework. Neither of which is actually going to get done before Monday.
SAT on Saturday. I am not excited. I didn't get the greatest scores last time and I am probably not going to improve much this time. It might help if I actually considered studying, but I have no motivation left. I think that after 6th period on Friday my brain shut down.
Tuesday morning I woke up at 6:00, unsuprisingly, but then I actually got out of bed and went running. I did 3 miles. It was nice, except kind of terrifying that I can feel my lungs getting weaker and of lesser capacity. I should quit smoking, but I won't, not because I'm addicted, but because I don't want to.
Prom is in 9 days. Haha what a funny joke. I don't even know why I'm going. Prom is everything that I hate about high school all compiled into one pointless night. I will try to enjoy myself though.
Things are changing again, but this time I'm prepared. I'm not necessarily willing to accept it, but I know it's happening. It sucks, actually. People who I've spent the last 3 years avoiding are now becoming a part of my life again and I'm not ready for that. I'll never be ready for that. Only a few more months left and then we're done. I can't wait.