09 June 2006

i hear the clock tick and think of you

In my journal on August 15, 2005 I wrote:

"I haven't written since my last morning at GSW. I just haven't thought about it much.

I miss GSW more than I ever thought I would. My heart breaks more and mroe everyday as I slowly come to the realization that I've lost the best thing that ever happened to me. I'll never get it back and I have no control over that.

Reality is hard to cope with. I don't really understand anything anymore. Not my friends. Not my family. Not my life in general. I don't know how to function properly without GSW life."


I don't remember my feelings about leaving being so intense. I know it was hard and I know I cried and I know it hurt to leave, but I don't remember being that upset about it.

I don't remember a lot of things about GSW and I wish I did. I'm trying desperately to relearn the lessons that it taught me before I go away this summer, but I don't know how.