Today was good for the most part though. I got all of my grades, and other than the C in AP Chem, they are all good. We had no teacher for psych so I went to 6th lunch. Also it's homecoming so we had shortened classes for the pep rally and everyone was in a good mood.
I was happy too, until they called the names of the varsity soccer players during the pep rally. Next friday is coming up fast and I couldn't help but almost cry because I know he should've been standing there too. Little things like that have been setting me off all week. This time of the year is always hard.
And now we're all getting ready to jet off on our adventures. We're applying for college and making all of these big plans and I'm not ready to go. I feel like the past five years have flown by at superspeed and so many big things have happened and I'm afraid of leaving because I don't want those big things to become insignificant in "the greater scheme of things." I don't want to forget what I've learned the past two years and I don't know how I'm going to hold on to all of it if I'm not around the people who have inspired me to hold on for so long.
And also I hate being emotional and sappy like this. It's been an incredibly long week.
When everything you love starts to disappear
The devil takes your hand and says "No fear;
Have another shot--just one more beer."
I've been there. That's why I'm here.