05 March 2009

Rest In Peace Allen Clary March 4, 2009.

Katy's dad passed away yesterday. And I hurt for her. My first day of Spring Break will involve a funeral. I'm not bitter. Just sad. Broken up.

It's been four and a half years since he died.
At the same time it brings back feelings that I've been trying to suppress for the past 2 years. Everytime something like this happens so much pain wells up inside of me that I have no idea how to deal with it. I retreat into my own little world for months at a time. I don't really want to do that now.

Weird. Who knew?

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family?
I wonder, what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
I know it might sound crazy

But it ain't fair--you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your place.