As soon as I was starting to be okay again it came crashing down as hard as it possibly could.
Why the fuck does God hate me? WHAT THE FUCK IS HE DOING BACK IN NORTH CAROLINA? AND OF ALL GODDAMN PEOPLE FOR HIM TO RUN INTO IN KNIGHTDALE WHY THE FUCK DID IT HAVE TO BE CHUCK?
I hate him more than I have ever hated anyone in my entire life. I do not like a lot of people. I even hate a lot of people. But I wish he were fucking dead. I would be so much fucking happier and at peace if he would just fucking die.
He's the reason for my goddamn alcoholism and alcohol is not even enough at this point. I seriously want to hurt something. I hate everything. Where the fuck did I go wrong?