Forget it. It hasn't. No. No. No. No. No. I am.
I haven't slept. Or eaten. In so, so, so long.
i'm staring out into that vacuum againI don't know what I want anymore. All I know is I feel sorry for him right now.
from the back porch of my mind
the only thing that's alive--i'm all there is
and i start attacking my vodka
stab the ice with my straw
my eyes have turned red at stoplights
you seem ready to walk
you know i'll call you eventually when i wanna talk
'til then you're invisible
'cause there's this switch that gets hit and it all stops making sense
and in the middle of drinks--maybe the fifth or sixth
i'm completely alone at a table of friends
i feel nothing for them, i feel nothing, nothing.
a house of cards, a supple heart
is not a place to dwell
now you have your cake, don't hesitate
c'mon, just do it. c'mon, just do it.
put it in your mouth
there is only now
tomorrow has to wait
but know there's no backin' out.
this is gonna be reality. you can never dream it down.
i have no way of tellin'
the two apart
well, i made amends in the general sense
but the devil's in the details
and i know the cause
and i wanna stop
but i can't do it, i just can't do it
there was love i meant
there were accidents
so tell me which is which
'cause i just can't work it out
but for memory and clarity
we had better right it down
i have no way of knowing
the truth with time dissolves.
i put the past into the ground
i saw the future as a cloud
if there's still time to turn around, i'm going to
it's just one day i fell asleep
and now all day all night i dream
i am the first one i decieve
if i can make myself believe
the rest is easy.
Ladies and gentlemen, the story of my life.