I realize that, aside from the binge-drinking, drug use and overall outrageousness that is college, my life has been lacking a well-known element lately: chaos. Usually everything is such a mess and I don't even have time to decide what I'm feeling before one mess changes into a worse mess. Being alone with my thoughts is scary. Maybe a lack of chaos is what I need, but I still find myself trying to find something in my life that will stimulate the madness that I am so accustomed to.
In reflecting on the last year I would not change a damn thing. I feel like we've all grown up so much this year, especially this summer, and maybe that's a good thing.