I half expected him to run into the church laughing and say "Ahaha I got you guys good this time!!"

But this isn't a joke.

I can't even talk about the funeral right now. I just want it for my memory. Want to remember how it felt and what it was like. Putting it into words isn't going to do anyone any good because no one will ever be able to find the right words, and then it will just be all wrong.

Half the things I was concerned with yesterday don't even matter right now. I just want to be with Neely, Cameron, Brittani, Bridget, Nick, Ryan, Brent and everyone right now. I know that we really haven't been friends lately. We haven't even really talked, but seeing them today brought back so much. I miss them more than I thought. I've been trying to push them away and forget about them, because I know that they don't need me. They have each other. But I need them in my life more than I knew. I don't expect things to change, but oh, how I wish they would.

It's weird, ya know, the people you thought were always going to be there usually aren't. Those promises you made saying that you'll be friends till the end are always broken. People are always walking in and out of your life at the most unexpected times and you have no control over it. And if someone doesn't want you in their life, there's nothing you can do about it. Sometimes things just aren't meant to be.

But, you guys know who you are, I want you to know that I'm here for you. Anytime day or night if you need me please don't be afraid to call. I love you a lot and I miss you more than words can describe.


Rest In Peace
Vincent Kennedy Kerr Jr.
""jR""
June 14, 1989 - October 6, 2004
Always thinking of you. Forever in our hearts.