"and it is dark,
and I am back with myself again.

you have no idea.
this dark.

it would be so easy to let you take me with you.
that waking dreamland we escape to every now and then.

to be the person you think I am.
that person worthy of your love.

but I'm not
I do not deserve you.

your breath,
my confession

I have hurt people.
different people, the same hurt.

I have done things because I wanted to.
for no other reason than wanting to.

I have dont things.
I have been that darkness.

you are sleeping with your arm around the pillow,
your feet dangling off the bed.

there should only be one of us here.
you have no idea that I will break your heart.

when you break someone's heart
you also break your own.

whenever I approach the truth,
you back away from it.

you don't want to know.
but you should know.

the more you love me, the more I will ruin you.
I will take my darkness and I will push it inside you.

lying awake beside you,
these thoughts go through my head.

I have done unforgiveable things.
(you inhale, you exhale)

I have taken advantage of other people's weaknesses in order to cover my own.
I have slept with boys even though I knew they would later make me want to die.

I have lied so often that I've lost all track of the truth.
I have stolen people's boyfriends, because I knew I could.

and then I dumped them like everyone else.
because there was always someone else.

I have never been faithful.
until you.

but I do not know if that can last, if I can overcome who I am.
you open your arms to me and I want to tell you not to.

do not expose yourself to me.
the last boy who did that ended up shattered.

he could not stop asking me why?
he told me he loved me and I slapped him.

he thought I was playing, but I wasn't.
I am that damaged.

you sleep so innocently, and I watch so guiltily.
I didn't think it would come to this."

-The Realm of Possibility by David Levithan