14 December 2004

I am SO freaking sick of working my ass off to make my parents happy and then having them treat me like I'm 8 years old again. I'm sorry but I'm 15 now and I'm at the age where they treat me with respect and I treat them with respect. No more of this I-can-bitch-at-you-all-i-want-but-don't-you-dare-say-anything-back shit. None. I cannot stay in this house for a week and a half of chirstmas break. I would so much rather be in school. I can't stand how they yell at me for staying up in my room all day but then when I come downstairs everyone is just yelling constantly and I'm sorry but I have enough mental and emotional stress right now. I don't need to come home and listen to my family yell at each other for hours without end. Las night my dad got pissed at me because I was upstairs studying for exams!! He was like "why are you studying? come downstairs and talk to us." And then I told him that I had to study and he went off on me. And then my mom sits here and tells me that school is the most important aspect of my life right now and that I need to be focused on that and that alone. So which is it? Why do they have to freaking contradict themselves all the time? Why can't they just leave me alone? Maybe I'll come talk to them when they quit treating me like shit...