Long time, no update..I guess.

I don't know. Things here have been hectic. It's week 5. We have our dance concert on saturday and rehersals have been hell. I have never sweat so much in my life. This morning we did something with the English kids though, and that was a nice break from rehersals. I'm so exhausted--mentally, physically and emotionally. I can't believe it's almost over. I know that there are people here that I'll never see again and it makes me sad. That's just my life though. So many people come & go. Goodbyes shouldn't bother me anymore, but they do. They always will.

I had a good cry on Monday night. I needed that more than anything. I hadn't cried once since I'd been here. One stupid thing happened and it just set me off and triggered everything that I've been trying to get away from here. There's no use in running away from it anymore. It always catches up with me and then it just hurts even more. I think I can get away, but it's all a part of me and I can't pretend that it's not.

I say that, but I don't mean it. I still think that somehow I can pretend none of it is happening and I'm just having a bad dream. I hate that. I hate feeling that I'm weak--that I'm not strong enough to get away from something that I don't need anymore. So I cried, and it felt good. Everyone should cry every now and then.

Well I guess it's time for me to go make some ramen or something and take a nap before my next class. I love you all a lot. haha sorry I can't write any of you that have written me letters. I ran out of envelopes like a dummy :)