11 April 2009

i kiss your mouth and i know for everything there is a word, for everything but this.

I know I am not good with matters of the heart, that does not mean I do not have feelings. I get jealous just like every other person. Just because I don't let it show doesn't mean it doesn't exist. I just want my happy universe to stay the same as it as been, without non-legal baby girls trying to intrude on it because all of the attention must be theirs at all times.

This weekend was great. It was great to be back with both of my boys. I'm not so concerned about where things are going anymore. And they might be moving to the thrill this summer. I'm not quite sure if Chapel Hill could handle the three of us, but it'd be a damn good time, for sure.

I believe Ryan Adams has probably said the wisest words to me this week: "If you want it to stop, then stop."