04 September 2007

Forgivemeology.

I don't think I've ever been happier for 3 weeks straight than I am now.

Yes, I do go to class and have to do homework and join clubs and do all of the bullshit that I had to do to get me through high school, but this is 200 times better. I am surrounded by people that I can relate to. I am under no obligation to live up to anyone's expectations.

The problem is that a huge weight has lifted off of my shoulders now that I don't have to please my parents. I love them, yes, but the last 4 years was all for them. For the first time I feel like I'm doing something for me and only for me. It's incredible.

I love that I can meet new people everyday. I also love that I can disappear to my dorm for hours and no one will really worry about me. No expectations.

And I love that I haven't spoken to my "boyfriend" in three weeks. That sounds terrible. I don't care. I am happy.

"There was a girl who talked to geese. She understood them and they heard her. One day she looked into a crystal stream and saw in its bed a diamond. She picked it up and placed it in her hair. As she did so, she turned into a geese. It was then revealed that the other geese she had magically understood were once human, like her." -Cocorosie